My Last Day as a Zombie ( Created on October 26th, 2010)

Well,well, Here I am, trying to find my true self.
These past 3 weeks I’ve been drown myself into a dark and deep self-pity, which is very PATHETIC, and I’M NOT TRYING to get out from that pathetic place.
WHY?
Well thats a long long story but the point is I lost my mind that day, back there. I lost my way, I lost my light, my only way to survive,…Jesus. I forgot about Him and fell off the cliff.
SO HOW do I manage to get out from that quirky place?
Now, this is the hardest part to be told. :)
I have a good friend, i mean like a really good one, and they do care about me. They often told me not to skip my classes so I won’t lose the absent. So do them ~A few fellows from my lecturer class~ , care about me like my besties do.
No,the story has just beginning.
So, i have this thought to leave my college, my life, and I started to think about married ~like really really soon~ or work or something…that can distract me from my family or (Back there i really think of it) runaway from my house.
I’m starting to do another crazy things, from skip classes everyday and go on to the beach, or have fun with my Facebook or BBM (BlackBerry Messenger) ‘s Friend.
And this one thing that i can sure of is while im doing that back there i REALLY wasn’t thinking. I just walk, without my heart.
Like a zombie. Yeah, i really mean it. ZOMBIE. NOTES: They dont have a heart. Just like me. Right?
Feel free to judge me, but Im telling you that I’ve changed. Thank to my Sensei (Japanese word of teacher)…Shita Sensei and Timor Sensei. They really gave me a courage to do all of these. Phiuhh.. Thanks God. I know, You used them to give me what I always wanted. LIFE. HEART. A heart to understand that everybody has the own problem, and why can I?
Today I promise, though i realized that my heart still in an unstable condition, i promise about that zombie thing. It wont happen again.
And I promise, i will always remember this day as my turning point. From unstable-teen into almost-stable-mature-woman. How about it?
Nice, huh?
:)
Well guys, pray for me, give me faith, give me courage.
Thanks to my fellows, my besties, my sensei, and the last but not least but the best, thanks to Jesus.
See you Guys!
Hope you understand what Im saying.
Sorry about my poor english,enjoy!
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